I had my reasons why I wanted to be employed already, wherever possible. 'Lam ko na sa callouses to.
It's been three months already, but nobody from my starred emails has asked me for interview appointments. A friend, O, encouraged me to apply where she applied—MNOP. The position? Social Science instructor. I do want to be a teacher... of children, or those younger than my age. But why not? I'm more than ready for anything today (again, I have my reasons why). P, MNOP's HR Assistant, told me that some existing instructors were struggling to balance their master's theses and teaching. They didn't want to leave their students hanging in the middle of the semester. I wanted to be part of that goal. Who wants to be left without a teacher mid-semester? Hindi naman palaging masaya 'pag "No Classes". Students would eventually crave real learning from an engaged classroom, not just an empty room and a silent blackboard. Another thing, Mr. Q, my initial interviewer, also your demo assessor (pasado ka pa dito sa part na to e HAHA)! Bless his soul. He believed in me! Di ko kaya sya inaunfriend kahit sumalangit na sya. Senyor. told me that the campus wanted to have accreditation. I don't know why, but my heart for that university gets growing an inch. I felt the need to contribute to its plans and actions for accreditation.
Another thing: Mr. Q, my initial interviewer and demo assessor (pasado ka pa dito sa mga parts na to e HAHA)—bless his soul for he believed in me! Di ko sya inunfriend kahit sumalangit na si senyor. He told me that the campus wanted accreditation. I don't know why, but as the days passed, my heart for that university kept growing. I felt the need to contribute to its plans and actions for accreditation. LUH FEELING HAHAHA
Mr. Q asked me if I could teach any subjects other than Social Science. He recommended I hold a class for an English course. Lol no. Di ko nga alam kung paano gamitin ang "live in", "live on", at "live at" eh. Literature nalang po. Sige po, pati Physics. Lol. Bagsak ka kasi sa Physics. Ay! Scary ang naging separation ko sa subject na to (o sa guro? HAHAHA). These are the subjects he wrote on my evaluation paper: Social Science, Psychology, NSTP Literacy, and others I've already forgotten.
I hate how I passed the three stages (initial interview, teaching demo, and psychological exam) but failed the last one (panel interview). Was it how I dressed? How I fixed my hair? Tututsang tutsang Was it about choosing between the two of us from the same university? Talong talo ako sa credentials kung ganon. Why would they choose an ordinary graduate over a Cum Laude? I don't really know. I have no regrets about how I answered their questions, because I know I spoke from my heart and told the truth. I know I defended my answers with compassion. E BAKA MALDITA MAG REBUT KAYA LIGWAK HAHAHA
Funny that among the three of us in line for the panel interview that day, I was the one who felt comfortable and somewhat sure about getting the job (well, of course, I kept that quietly to myself). Back at the HR Department, P called us one by one. That's when I learned I wasn't accepted, while the other two, including O, were.
There might be something wrong with me. Whatever that is, I wish my system SYYSTEEEM?! can change.I felt sad, yes. Sobra akong nanghihinayang. That was because of the plans, suggestions, and strategies running on my mind for the school as mentioned above. I even felt a tear crumpled on my eyelid remembering how O spoke her mind, when she was with me and my mom, [NV: Hindi naman sa ano.. pero diba.. MNOP.. yung mga estudyante nila hindi naman ganon ka ano.. Kaya -magsuspoonfeed talaga tayo.] WAAAT Strong phrases. Nagulat talaga ako sa sinabi niyang yun. Ramdam kong matatalino at may ibubuga yung mga estudyanteng yun (at sinabi ko to kay Mama FR FR?!).
Sabi na DBTK talaga ako e.
Teka. May ganon palang side ang kabaitan ni O. Oh, how I love people. May ganto ka ring sarcasmasmisms sa gustong magpatutor sayo for cse e!
I am happy for O, yes! I just hate how she thinks about her soon students that way. WTH. She hadn't been with them even for an hour that day (though teaching demo niya nun, hindi students ang kaharap nya, mga evaluators). Lakas manghusga. OMG Hala may ganyan palaaa noon! Sana lang magbago ang perception niya, lalo pa't isa na syang guro, guro ng mga estudyanteng minsan ko nang ninais na makasama at makapalitan ng opinyon.
di ka nagiisa :(
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